exhausted no matter how much I sleep/ doze off, and despite the fact that I'm not doing any hardcore cramming. Is it going to be like this for the next 80 days because good bloody luck to me why hasn't anyone gone insane yet even sleeping just a little over time after the alarm clock rings in the morning is enough to make me feel so riddled with guilt when did things become like this I just want to log out of the world and from everything ahead or to be born again with no impressions of anything left to think for myself what is good and what is pretty and what is not to make the right decisions to pick the right roads to make myself a different person because according to the current world I am everything not no I just want to sleep and sleep and wake up when I want to and not when an alarm clock rings I want to sleep knowing that when I wake up it's a new day and I'll be doing new things and not repeating the previous day all over again another 80 days of this absolute misery you tell yourself it'll all be over before you know it but that doesn't change the fact that it's still 80 days of pure shitiness and you look at everyone else around you and you get so jealous of what they have where they are who they are and I just want to be in the world all by myself so I won't have to care about anyone anymore to save myself from the hypocrisy all around and degrees don't matter?